So today I'll break that tradition. Today marks the day I will make resolutions for myself daily. I'm going to take the time to think about myself every day, not just once a year.
Every day I will do something positive, something to make the world a little better. It doesn't have to be monumental. Possibly a smile or a kind word, a friendly gesture or helping someone with anything they need.
Every day I will write something. Writing is not a chore, it is something I love. Something that makes me happy.
Every day I will do what I have to do, even if it isn't required to be done yet. I am a world class procrastinator and it drives me crazy. It's not as bad as it used to be, but I always have room for improvement.
I will not be so hard on myself. I know I have ridiculously high expectations for myself sometimes. I'm not perfect, nor will I ever be. I am my own worst enemy and my harshest critic, but I will silence that voice.
I will be brave. I'm afraid of change, like most humans are, but if you've read my blog for the past year you know that I've dealt with a lot of change. Not all of it was good (at the time) but it worked out for the best. It always works out for the best.
I will be more positive. Living with so much negativity has led me to always brace myself for the worst. I want to live my life expecting the best. It would surely help my anxiety.
I will be happier with myself. Yeah yeah, I'm sure you're all thinking about the positive self image stuff people spin and all of the "healthy living" resolutions people make. This isn't that. I know I'll never be a toothpick, but I'm okay with that. I like having curves, but we could all stand to be a little healthier, yes? I won't say that I'll diet my life away or become a gym rat. I'm just saying that I'll do what I want, when I want to. And I'll be happy with that.
I will be more independent. Okay, this one is more of a wish than a resolution. I want to be more self sufficient. I rely on my parents for too much, and I know they (secretly?) resent that fact. They're good to me, they help me more than anyone ever could, but I know they want me to stand on my own two legs now. If only I could.
Resolutions aren't just a list of things we force ourselves to do. The idea is to better ourselves, to become the people we want to be.
So this isn't a shopping list.
This is me, in 2014.
Cheers xx